We Are Blessed: A story I read to my family on Christmas Eve, 2021

 

On Christmas day four years ago, Judy, Henry and I were at a Christmas dinner at the home of our friends Inez and Greg in Cochabamba, Bolivia.  Also at the table were Inez and Greg’s daughter Christina, husband Tyson and their two children.  It was a wonderful time of good food and conversation that moved from topic to topic as such dinner conversations do. 

I don’t remember much of what we talked about except for this:  the word “Blessed’ came up – perhaps one of us saying we feel so blessed for good health, or some such thing.  Tyson took exception to use of this word; said he didn’t use it.

A bit about Christina and Tyson.  They had moved to Bolivia with no organization supporting them, just some friends and churches who promised to send money for their living expenses.  In Cochabamba they set up several programs for abandoned children, including an orphanage for kids off the streets – kids who had no one to care for them, some who had lost parents to AIDS.

So why do you object to the word Blessed, Tyson, I asked?  He said he thought about it like this. If someone who has good fortune and prosperity says they are blessed, what about those with the opposite experience?  Those we see living on the edges of society, like the abused children in their orphanage - Are they cursed? Maybe his point was that we are not any more deserving of being “blessed” then the one who seems to not be blessed.  I didn’t have an answer then but have thought about that question many times since.  And it has come to me that the kids they care for ARE blessed!  Blessed to have this young couple to care for them, feed them and love them.

Looking at the question of what it means to be blessed the Hebrew and Christian Bible says something like this:  a favor or gift given by God that brings meaning and purpose to life.  And I believe that gift comes to us by grace, not deserved, but given.  Just as Jesus was a blessing to Mary and Joseph and all of us – a gift from God.

I usually use the term blessed sparingly but intentionally.  But here I will use this word freely and often to express my feeling that we are blessed to have a wonderful family.  Blessed here and now in this place at Christmas, but larger than that we are blessed that we are actually here on earth, living and enjoying life. Let me tell you about three blessings Judy and I received during our lifetime, our children, and a bit about their first Christmases.

 Bret’s first Christmas was a quiet and peaceful gathering with us and a few friends in Saigon in 1967.  But just a month later we were in the center of one of the biggest battles of the war, right there in the city – the TET offensive.  Sounds of war all around us.  I was not overly frightened but have to admit we were worried, because Bret was not in good shape physically – he was somewhat undernourished and sick, and we were concerned.  But one of many serendipitous happenings and encounters in our lives was to find a good doctor from the Seventh Day Adventus hospital in Malaysia after they evacuated from Saigon, and with his skill and the help of friends who cared for Judy and Bret, he fully recovered. 

There was another serendipitous encounter several years later when we lived in the Amazon jungle in Peru.  Bret, about 4 years old, had terrible pain in his gut – and screamed throughout the night with every spasm.  We could give little comfort.  But it so happened that our friend, Dr. Jim, was only a few miles from us and we rushed him to that jungle hospital where Jim quickly diagnosed the problem and within minutes Bret was undergoing emergency surgery which literally saved his life.  Another doctor friend in Lima, when he heard that story, said we were fortunate – he said he doubted we could have found a doctor in all of Peru who would have diagnosed that condition so quickly and done life-saving surgery on the spot.  We were blessed that Dr Jim was there – the right person, at the right time, and right place - if not, it all could have been very different. 

We wanted to have another child, so we looked far away to Korea – to the Holt Children’s Service where a social worker in an orphanage in Seoul picked out just the right little infant girl to send to us. Mr. Kim brought her all the way across the ocean and placed her in Judy’s arms in the Portland airport and when they arrived home in Boise, Bret’s first words to her were, “hi, Sookie”.  It could have been different – not all babies thrive and survive in orphanages.  Lani was weak and sick when she came to us.  But she soon was thriving in our family.  We were blessed to have this wonderful gift from God placed in our home.

 Lani’s first Christmas was in Mexico – where she took her first steps, and we enjoyed the Mexican custom of Las Posadas following Joseph and the pregnant Mary on a donkey as they went through the streets of Cuernavaca searching for a posada – an inn.  Lani won’t remember that, but I remember carrying her on my hip as we sang songs and walked along with the procession. 

Daniel was born in the same jungle hospital in Peru where Bret’s life had been saved.  His first Christmas, though, was on the farm in Minnesota where we celebrated Christmas eve with his grandparents Arnold and Inez Aaker.  That might have been the last time we had traditional Norwegian fare for the Christmas eve meal with my mother, lutefisk and lefsa and all the other trimmings, so much enjoyed in the Aaker family. My mom and dad were so happy and felt blessed to have us safely at home.  We were blessed to be there with them.  That was the exact time that a huge earthquake destroyed the city of Managua, – an event that changed the direction of our lives and pointed us in the direction of Nicaragua for the next many years. 

We were visiting in Albuquerque in 2002 when I got the most shocking phone call of my life.  I was in the backyard of Bret’s little house on 13^th St and Daniel was on the other end of the call, He said, “Dad, I have cancer in my eye”.  We were stunned.  How do you respond to that?  You respond with prayer and action.  Thus began a long and torturous journey for Daniel and for us as we tried to support and accompany him. 

Another serendipitous encounter happened.  The doctor in Seattle brought Daniel’s case to a conference and someone there told him about two Doctors in Miami who were experimenting with a novel treatment for this exact cancer, and with some success.  The doctors’ names were Dr. Tse, and Dr. Benedeto – the Italian word for “blessed”. 

We and Daniel headed for Miami.  After several weeks of Dr. Benedeto’s care and very painful treatments, Daniel flew back to Seattle and we drove the long road back to Minnesota, arriving on Christmas eve to our cold and undecorated farmhouse.  I remember that as a dark, lonely and somewhat forlorn Christmas and felt guilty thinking of Daniel going home alone to an empty house in Seattle to recuperate, having to look forward to the next chapter – surgery to remove his eye.  We had prayer support from many and give thanks now that Daniel is with us.  We are blessed.

And then you wonderful grand kids came into our lives, one at a time, or in one case two at a time!  And now two babies in the next generation, as well.  You were all born healthy – ten toes and ten fingers – cause for giving thanks to God, but we know that others who are not born healthy are not a curse but also a blessing.  Life is precious.  What a blessing for grandparents to see you grow in mind, body and spirit toward your God-given potentials.

And we have welcomed with joy Sarah, Rachel and Fil.  You have your own families and stories, and we rejoice to have you as part of our family story, as well.  There may not be many more times when we are all able to gather like this for Christmas, so I say, take in how blessed this time together has been and continues to be.

Colin (age 7) has been learning in his Bible stories class how to give a blessing to others.  Maybe he wants to share how he does that?  (Colin made the sign of the Cross and said, “mama, I bless you in the name of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit.”)

So, let’s give a blessing to each other.  Put your arm around the one sitting next to you, and simply say “May God bless you.  I love you”

Jerry, Christmas, 2021

 

 

 

 

 

 

Reading in 2021

 

I am not a fast reader but had time this year to read 32 books.  After completing each book, I write a short review of each and give it a score ranging from minus, neutral, +, ++.   Obviously, there are a few with a minus score get discarded before page 50. 

Here are my ++ books for 2021.

Cold Mountain by Charles Frazier; The Book Woman of Troublesome Creek, by Kim Michele Richardson; Grapes of Wrath and East of Eden by John Steinbeck; Ordinary Grace and This Tender Land, by William Kent Krueger, The Best Short Stories of Fyodor Dostoevsky (my favorite is The Peasant Marey); The River of Doubt: Theodore Roosevelt's Darkest Journey and Destiny of the Republic, by Candice Millard; Anxious People, by Fredrik Backman; The Mapmaker's Wife, by Robert Whitiker; and The Premonition, by Michael Lewis 

Just a bit about this last one.  For a non-fiction book, this reads like a page turning detective story. Lewis is quite the storyteller!  He recounts the years leading up to the current pandemic starting in the George W. Bush administration when some very smart people were gathered into a team to develop the national pandemic response plan.  Bush had read Berry's book on the 1918 pandemic and saw the urgency of planning for the next one. The book is a fascinating story of behind the scenes medical, public health and computer modeling visionaries who continued to work on preventing the worst-case scenarios of what was surely coming - the next pandemic. One of the main characters, Cherity Dean, in the California Public Health Department, had a premonition of it's coming even before it arrived in the US.

At the beginning of the Covid-19 pandemic recommendations and models from these problem solvers met with a wall of resistance and ignorance from the establishment, including the CDC, the Whitehouse and other politicians who didn't have the courage to make hard decisions quickly to avert the coming damage.  The CDC fumbled the ball in the beginning by not coming out with a testing program and tool for testing. We have all heard about how the Trump administration zeroed out the budget for the pandemic planning team, and (thanks to John Bolton) that team was all fired.  

Turns out that the US was not the country best prepared for a pandemic.  Lewis refers to Carter Mecher, one of these behind-the-scenes individuals as redneck epidemiologist and says this is a book about "superheroes where the superheroes don't win the war".

As we know, there is not a happy ending to this story.  But it is fascinating and encouraging to know that there are some very bright people out there working on solutions who are doing it for reasons other than fame and money.  Probably many of them in state and local public health departments who just need good direction and a cohesive national health policy to do their jobs. 

This story shows the correlation between politics and pandemics and how science is often not allowed to do what is required. 

Garfield: History I Did Not Know

 

There are gaps in my knowledge of American history.  For one, neither in school nor

subsequently did I learn much about the period from Presidents Ulysses Grant to Teddy

Roosevelt, except that it was the time of the reconstruction after the Civil War, a pretty

disastrous period, especially for the freed slaves in the South. 

Reading Destiny of the Republic: A Tale of Madness, Medicine, and the Murder of the

President, by Candice Millard, filled in some of that gap in my knowledge.

This book takes readers through the life of James Abram Garfield’s rise from near

nothing to the Presidency of the United States, and his assassination at the hands of a

delusional mad man who thought he received a divine revelation to kill President

Garfield.

James A. Garfield was one of the most extraordinary men ever elected president. Born into abject poverty, he rose to become a scholar, a Civil War hero, and a renowned and admired reformist congressman.  He was a prolific reader of classics, science and philosophy, and an eloquent speaker.  Nominated for president in 1880 by the Republicans against his will, he didn’t campaign for himself.  Nor did he do so earlier when he ran for the Senate – spending a whopping $150 on that campaign.  He literally was born in a log cabin in rural Ohio, with extraordinarily effort he got an education, and was a college President by the time he was in his mid-twenties.  

He was highly intelligent, articulate, and compassionate.  The treatment of blacks may have been much different if he would have had the chance to serve out his term.  During his brief time as President, he engaged in a fierce battle with the corrupt political establishment.   But four months after his inauguration, a deranged office seeker tracked Garfield down and shot him in the back. Incredibly there were no secret service body guards for presidents at that time, nor for many years to come. The shots didn’t kill Garfield. 

The drama of what happened subsequently is a powerful story of a Washington in turmoil. The unhinged assassin’s half-delivered strike left the wounded president as the object of a bitter behind-the-scenes struggle for power—over his administration, over the nation’s future, and, hauntingly, over his medical care. A team of physicians administered shockingly archaic treatments to disastrous effect. As his condition became worse he suffered excruciating pain for over two months, though he remained kind and uncomplaining throughout.  

One image that grips the attention is doctors repeatedly inserted unsterilized instruments and fingers into the wound in search of the bullet.  Alexander Graham Bell, the inventor of the telephone, worked around the clock to invent a new device capable of finding the bullet.  It turned out that the bullet was lodged in a place the doctors never looked, and Bell’s invention could not find it because the doctor in charge refused to search on the opposite side of where the bullet had entered Garfield’s body.

The time when Garfield was lying deathly ill and injured in the White House and after his death people in all parts of the nation were in anxious vigil and mourning (even, apparently, Southerners).  It was a time of a united nation.  Both of my Aaker grandparents, Olaf and Ellen, were born in 1880, the year James A Garfield was elected the 20th President of the USA.  My Romo grandparents were about ten years old that year.  I wonder how much was covered in their history lessons in country school about the Garfield presidency.  Though I don’t ever remember talking politics with my Aaker grandparents, they were probably Republicans. But then being Republican meant something different in those post Lincoln, Garfield, Roosevelt days. Candice Millard writes a very readable and well researched story.  I recently read her first book, River of Doubt: Theodore Roosevelt’s Darkest Journey, and found that an equally engaging story I also knew little about.  I give her an A+ for both books.  September 16, 2021

 

Inspiration in troubled times

“I do not busy myself with great matters,.... Rather I have stilled my soul….like a weaned child on it’s mother’s lap”  from Psalm 132

What are these “great matters” that trouble the mind?  Just within the last few days...

A UN report on climate change that says humanity is on “red alert”

The Taliban taking over in Afghanistan with lightning speed after the longest war the US has ever waged, 20 years of blood and suffering - spent treasure and lost lives.

An earthquake in the poorest country in this hemisphere with a death toll of over a thousand and rising.  

Migrants by the tens of thousands arriving at the Southern border and the turmoil and anguish of so many with raised hopes, and others with fear of this “invasion.”

Wildfires raging across the West resulting in scorched earth and lost homes for many.

The outcome of any of these great matters won’t be changed by my fretting and worry, but I do pray and watch from afar. And look for signs of hope.  I look for calm and the presence of the Spirit and inspiration. Yesterday was an inspirational day!

 I was inspired by the courage and compassion of Dr. Eva Mora from El Paso.  We listened to her talk at Las Placitas Presbyterian Church about the work she and many volunteers do to get help to the migrants arriving and waiting in shelters in Ciudad Juarez across the border.  It is a work we support through the “Dignity Mission” headed up by Jack and Cheryl Ferrell from that Church.  They had a vision that started with just a few “dignity kits” and now has channeled thousands of kits and tens of thousands of dollars worth of needed material aid to countless migrant families from Central America.  Those are families from villages I used to work with in Central America.  They have come to the wrenching decision to leave their homes and take a chance on getting safely to the US.  Many don’t make it, but others have hope because of Eva Mora and a network of supporters from around the country.. 

Eva Mora said we should not be dismayed and overwhelmed by the great need - but persevere. Wait for the prompting of the Spirit for your purpose and look not only at far away places but also to those neighbors closest to us.  

Another thing inspired us yesterday - words about wisdom and the Bread of Life from Pastor Christa, and a song I was not familiar with but found myself humming the rest of the day.  I found there are lots of You tube recordings.  I love this one by the Notre Dame folk choir.  It is inspiring to see young people sing like they really believe it!

I Am the Bread of Life - Toolan | Notre Dame Folk Choir

For Everything a Season

 A time to be born, and a time to die. ( Ecclesiastes 7:17 ): — The verse has two parts: "There is a time to be born; and a time to die": and it seems as if a person has as little control over the one as over the other — over the day of one’s death as over the day of birth.

Recently we have observed both the passing of old friends and the birth of a new baby into our this world, and these events cause me to ponder what is most important in life. And to relish life itself, knowing that we are but sojourners for awhile on this earth.

Jim Bergquist was the pastor in Honolulu when he and wife Lorrie greeted me as I arrived for graduate school in 1963.  After long and fruitful lives they died earlier this year, their passing separated only by a month. There will be a joint funeral service tomorrow to commemorate their lives.  I haven’t heard of that happening before. 

Their life journeys have some similarities to ours in that they served the church in many places in the US and abroad.  Jim was a great theologian and scholar who held leadership positions in the Church and taught in seminaries in various Asian countries, including four years in India teaching at Gurukul Theological Seminary in Madras, India.

Jim and Lauri moved about a lot, as have we. The last time we saw them they were experiencing pain and diminished strength brought on by age (late 80s) - though they had  the ever present positive attitude they always exhibited.  At that time Lauri was reading two or three books on history a week. Judy and I mourn as we think about these wonderful friends, even though we saw them infrequently over the years and kept up via Christmas letters for the most part.  They left the world a better place and their legacy carries on through the many lives touched and taught, as well as through the lives of their children and many grand and great grandchildren.

On the other end of life we rejoice in the birth of our second great-grandchild, Lyonna Velgach on  April 28th, the second child born to our granddaughter Leslie and her husband Filipp.  We held a family gathering in Chicago in June with all three of our children, all but one of our six grandkids, and two great-grandchildren.  It gives us a wonderful appreciation for the continuity of the generations as we look back at our path taken in life and see the paths taken by each of our offspring, both affirming and diverging from ours. 

Jim and Lauri leaving Hawaii in 1964.

Bobby, Chris, Kathy and Mark.

One of our last visits with Jim and Lauri when they treated us to Indian food in Minneapolis, Dec. 2016.

The oldest and youngest in our family. Lyonna at two months, Jerry at 82 years.

Family in Chicago, June 2021.

Morning Has Broken

 

… like the first morning,

Blackbird has spoken, like the first bird

Praise for the singing, praise for the morning,

Praise for them singing, fresh from the Word.

This Gaelic folk tune from long ago was joined together with words written by Eleanor Farejon and was first published in an English hymnal in 1931.  We know it best from the rendition made popular by Cat Stevens in the 1970s, leading to its inclusion in several hymnals and often sung in worship services.  After becoming a pop star Stevens converted to Islam (he is now known as Yusuf Islam), and went on his own spiritual quest for some years before returning to music.  

I’ve sung it as a solo in churches a few times, and many times alone and with groups.  But the image that comes most readily to mind is dancing this lilting folk melody with Judy whenever it happens to come on the radio or when I put the recording on the phonograph and turn up the volume.  Yes, we still do have a turntable! 

The words prompt me to savor the quiet of the early morning as songbirds gently greet the new day while I meditate. But for most of my life early rising meant starting a new day with a to do list and  getting on with the many demands of the day.  Little time for contemplative prayer and silence when we were raising the family, had jobs to go to, or I made a rush to the airport for another trip.  

Now in retirement and old age it is easier to take in “the sweetness of the wet garden” and appreciate hints of God’s regenerating energy.  Just this week we left the heat of the desert here in New Mexico and went high into the mountains to camp below towering Ponderosa pines where we enjoyed the coolness of the morning where warm sunlight appeared through the branches after a gentle rain.  Add to that the joy of spending days in the mountains with our youngest grandchild, Colin, trying to keep up with his enthusiastic appreciation in his own way of “God’s recreation of the new day”.  As the old beer commercial said, “it doesn’t get any better than this”!

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3Rifby1tVE8

Memorial Day, 2021

 

Once to Every Man and Nation, 

……. comes the moment to decide,

In the strife of truth with falsehood, for the good or evil side,

Some great cause, some new decision offering each the bloom or blight,

The choice goes on forever, twixt that darkness and that light.

The words of this hymn are difficult for me to understand correctly.  Are these words about a nation taking up arms for a just cause, or what is perceived at the moment as a just cause?  Is it about an individual standing for truth and on the side of good against evil? Is it a decision of faith in Christ? All of these, I’m sure.  

It takes courage to make a decision on the spur of the moment when that decision may be a choice that changes everything.  Fifty four years ago in a village in the highlands of Vietnam a young American lieutenant played volleyball with us in our backyard on a Sunday afternoon.  On Monday morning he was killed in a battle with North Vietnam Army soldiers just five miles outside of town.  He had made a decision to serve his country and though I didn’t agree with the rightness of that war, we honor his service and remember that sad day when he and many hill tribe militia soldiers were also killed alongside him, some of the many who made choices that “go on forever” from that day. 

This inspirational hymn tune has been used as background for a video of the Red Army going into battle against the Nazis at St Petersburg.   It has been a rallying call for the anti-abortion crusade.  But also for standing up to power that makes wrong decisions to bring a country to war.  And for many individual decisions - what Christians call the discernment of the will of God.

In fact, it is a protest song.  The above are just four lines from a long poem titled “The Present Crisis”,  written in 1845 by James Russell Lowel.  It is a protest against the U.S. Mexican war which Lowel saw as an act of aggression for the purpose of extending slavery. 

I remember the stretching of truth and the falsehood that President Johnson used to escalate the Vietnam war, and the claims that George W Bush made that Saddam Hussain had weapons of mass destruction in Iraq as the rationale for invasion in what became a long drawn out war and a great strategic mistake.  The destruction unleashed by such decisions for what was deemed a just cause are choices that go on forever.  

How do we know at the moment of decision if it is a right or even noble direction?    

These gripping words set to an inspiring tune have been sung in many settings.  Listen to this rendition sung by Christians in a Cathedral in India.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gHzXKTwCtg0

East of Eden

 

I finally read John Steinbeck’s novel East of Eden almost 70 years after it was published in 1952.  It is a long book (600 pages), and at times I got bogged down in some of the sub-plots, but I stuck with it as it was considered by Steinbeck himself as some of his best writing.  I was fascinated with the main theme and my attention was drawn to the Hebrew word Timshel.  

In my Cristian formation in the Lutheran tradition, I was taught about the importance of free will.  After all is said about good and evil and God’s love, we humans do have a choice.  We can accept God’s love, but we can also reject it.  What’s more we have the capacity to choose between good and evil. 

The most intriguing character in the novel for me is Lee, Adam Trask’s loyal Chinese servant. Lee acts as the novel’s philosophical and common sense compass. The Biblical story of Cain and Abel and the struggle humans have with good and evil is central to the story.

It seems like Steinbeck uses this character to develop his own thinking about what he called the “most profound question in the world”.  Lee takes the story of Cain and Abel to a group of wise old Chinese scholars for their take on it’s meaning and reports back:

“Don’t you see? The American Standard translation orders men to triumph over sin, and you can call sin ignorance. The King James translation makes a promise in “Thou shalt,” meaning that men will surely triumph over sin. But the Hebrew word, the word timshel–‘Thou mayest’–that gives a choice. It might be the most important word in the world. That says the way is open. That throws it right back on a man. For if ‘Thou mayest’–it is also true that ‘Thou mayest not.’ Don’t you see?”

One reviewer of the book, Dolly Doyle, wrote:

“The title East of Eden is a reference to the story of Cain and Abel. After killing his brother in a fit of jealous rage, Cain is condemned to a lifetime of wandering by God. In Genesis 4:16, Cain is described as going "east of Eden" into the land of Nod.

The direct references to the Cain and Abel story do not end with the title. Both sets of brothers featured in the book—Charles and Adam, and Aron and Caleb—mirror Cain and Abel (the latter pair are even named after them). Cain and Abel are typically viewed as opposites: Cain is treacherous and evil, while Abel is virtuous and good. Similarly, such dualism is suggested in the relationships between the two sets of brothers, though Steinbeck complicates the idea that one brother is good while the other is evil every time by emphasizing the importance of choice in moral action and the possibility of redemption for those who have done evil things in the past.”

 

Steinbeck tries to point out that the free will to make choices, which God has given to humans, means that though we will not be able to overcome original sin, we may decide to ask for forgiveness and that redemption is possible for everyone. There is plenty of evil depicted in the story, especially in the character of Kate, the mother of the twin boys Caleb and Aron. Is there even redemption for her?

This is a book I would love to discuss with a book club, but I doubt there are enough recent readers of it to form a group.  The movie of East of Eden, with James Dean, came out in 1956. I have not seen it but plan to and will probably be disappointed.

It is fascinating to find that the English folk rock group Mumford and Sons wrote a song directly inspired by John Steinbeck's novel East of Eden.  The song Timshel refers to the Cain and Abel account as an important symbol in East Of Eden's storyline.  

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f8D7MLsNAb8

Prompts from Old Songs and Psalms during the Pandemic: #10

                                      In Peace I shall both lie down and sleep, Lord, make me secure.. From Ps 4

Hear My Words, Oh Lord… at dawn I will plead before you and wait,  from Ps 5

During the night I occasionally fret, but I am not overly worried as life flows on and I ponder in silence.  These times are slow and I am slow as I try to enjoy each day as age advances. 

But then there are disruptions and the unexpected happens.  In Psalm 6 the writer is in distress, weary with sighing, weeping in sorrow with trembling bones.  I dare not complain, as my suffering was acute, not chronic like some friends who live with constant pain.  

I was in the hospital for ten days.  These weeks have alternated between pain, anxious waiting and tranquility.  Finally I had a procedure called “Biliary Duct dilation percutaneous, with SJB”.  The radiologist thinks it went well.  But the doctors in the hospital had given me too much of an antibiotic and I came down with an allergic reaction - hives and extreme itching all over my body.  One of the seven plagues, I guess.  

Thankfully we are able to take a break from the medical regimen and go out to find a quiet place to camp along the Big Hole river.  We had a magnificent view of towering cliffs above with pine trees silhouetted against the blue sky and puffy clouds in quiet majesty. 

 I am reading Kathleen Norris’s book “Acedia and Me”  Acedia, which I was not familiar with, is defined as a state of listlessness or torpor, of not caring or not being concerned with one's position or condition in the world.  This is the way it is in life.  There is a lot of acedia happening these days as people feel listless, restless and out of sorts with isolation. Acedia has been written about by Christian monks and mystics for centuries.  No matter how we may want to pray the psalms and be in tune with the divine presence, life presents us with times of aridness and acedia.  Yes, even boredom.

One day we took a ride over a mountain road with magnificent vistas of  snow capped peaks high above and a herd of elk in the river valley below.  We were the only ones on that road.  It was so easily available - you just have to know where to go.  Every day is not a mountain top experience, but some are.  

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yCjhhvj7mv0

Prompts from Old Songs and Psalms during the Pandemic: #9

                                                           Come let us sing joyfully…  Ps 95

Sing a New Song to the Lord. Ps 98

Some of my favorite Psalms encourage us to sing joyfully; definitely one of the joys of my life.  Almost daily I strum my guitar and sing “old songs”..  Songs like “A Wayfaring Stranger”, and “Keep on the Sunny Side” , or popular songs from the 60s, hymns and chants. I long for the day when we can sing the great hymns of the church in the sanctuary accompanied by a full throated pipe organ.  

We went to in-person worship for the first time in a year.  It was a very worshipful Lenten service - based on the evening compline.  I sang the simple liturgy along with the worship leaders.  Afterwards Pastor Wayne complimented me on my singing but nicely said we are not yet allowed to sing in church because of Covid 19 precautions. I said, yikes, don’t turn me over to the pandemic police!  We laughed together - but I did feel a bit foolish.  

I continue to learn some of the old songs by heart as well as listen to new songs. It is hard to beat the joyful song by  Marty Haugen, Sing Oh God of Earth and Skies. I even try to strum and sing this one by myself at home alone, but some songs just have to be sung in the community. Marty, a cousin, about three removed, grew up in Wanamingo, Minnesota, only about 8 miles from where I grew up. He has become somewhat of a legend in both the Catholic and Lutheran churches for his easy to sing along with compositions.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bTYOglt9ab0

Prompts from Old Songs and Psalms during the pandemic: #8

 When cares increase within me, Your comfort gives me joy.  Ps 94

I care about, I wonder about, think about many things every day.  What I care about is life, well being, loved ones and more..  But “cares” here means to worry, be concerned and have anxious thoughts about.  The news overwhelms me with information about the pandemic and especially the plight of others.

  

 Both forms of cares are with me daily. …. It does little good to worry, but how to avoid it.

 Last night I didn’t feel well, an upset stomach and breathing issues.  My mind immediately raced to worst case scenarios.  This morning I am fine.  Comfort comes with the dawn;  Joy maybe, but comfort for sure.  

The image of the Good Shepherd comes to mind.  Marty Haugen’s wonderful song, Shepherd me o Lord reminds me to look  beyond my wants, beyond my fears, from death into life.  Fear no evil, for You are at my side.   

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wdiusy9YUYc

Prompts from Old Songs and Psalms during the Pandemic: #7

 I wait for the Lord, my soul waits and in his word I Hope, My soul waits for the Lord, more than those who watch for the morning,    from. Ps. 130

I am not good at waiting.  Now I am impatient and wait for an end to this pandemic. Some see light at the end of the tunnel and are eager; others counsel to keep a steady course.  We will get through this, they say, but it will take time.  People are getting impatient and weary.  But it is early. 

We have been in “lock-down” for months and there is unease in the country.  People are protesting, egged on by the president - so obstinate and contradictory.  Impatient!

Though impatient, I know the wisdom of calm and patient waiting lest I not appreciate each new day. Some of the psalms are poems of quiet meditation, but others hit me with the reality of an unjust and suffering world and often the psalmist pleads for vengeance. The psalmist says, “for in your light we see light”.  I prefer to look to the light.  

One of my favorite Taize contemplative chants is Wait for the Lord, Whose Day is Near.  How good to take quiet moments to contemplate and wait.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s7GexIvX8HU

Prompts from Old Songs and Psalms during the Pandemic: #6

June 18, 2020

Joy Dawned Again On Easter Day,

The Sun Shone Out With Fairer Ray,

When, To Their Longing Eyes Restored

The Apostles Saw Their Risen Lord.

Though this is not the Easter season, I am prompted to think of suffering, death and resurrection today.  My good friend, Gilberto, in Nicaragua has been suffering unimaginable pain from throat cancer.  Then he contracted Covid while in hospital.  He has lost the capacity to speak and swallow and has been in isolation.   He passed away yesterday.  Affectionately called El Profe, Gil was a kind and joyful servant to many, especially the poor of Nicaragua.  He had a passion for the Lord as he served in leadership positions in CEPAD, the church organization I helped to found after the 1972 earthquake.  

This very old hymn attributed to Ambrose of Milan in the fourth century, carries these words of comfort: from every weapon death can wield, thine own redeemed, thy people, shield.  Some of the weapons death can wield are fear, isolation, anger,  guilt and regret. I trust that Gilberto had no regrets and was not angry as he approached the end, but inevitably the feeling of isolation and aloneness must have accompanied him.  Thankfully, his good wife, Damaris, was present and David Parajon was attending to him with tender care as a doctor and friend.  Gilberto knew of the host of prayers being offered for his good and peaceful passing.  

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K1Z1e7A83s4

Prompts from Old Songs and Psalms during the Pandemic: #5

Continuing to post a few of the meditations I wrote in my journal during the first year or more of the pandemic. This one goes back to almost a year ago, and as I write now the trial for the murder of George Floyd has concluded with a guilty verdict.  We don't know if this is a sign of change for larger justice, or just one case of justice won.

                                                              Lift Every Voice and Sing 

Written in 1900 by James Weldon Johnson, this hymn/poem is filled with reference to the suffering of African Americans (the bitter chastening rod), and their hope for a better and more just future.  

This has become known as the black national anthem.  

Every line stands for the struggle and suffering, the hope and faith of the “march until victory is won”.  Sing a song of faith that the past has taught us, Sing a song of hope that the present has brought us.  Now, we are ten days into the protests and the deepening commitment of those who march for justice after the death of George Floyd on May 25th, 2020.  Peaceful assemblies of thousands in many cities under the banner of “Black Lives Matter”.  Some counter protesters disrupt and threaten the BLM marches.  Violence erupts.  

I ponder the word hope. I am not in a position to even come close to understanding the black experience in this country.  

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MyS3HPInHtI

NOMADS

 

By coincidence the last two books I’ve read are about nomads, or perhaps migrants is a better term.  Jessica Bruder’s 2017 book, Nomadland: Surviving America in the Twenty-First Century, is based on investigative reporting she did over a period of several years.  It is not a novel, so when I heard it was made into a movie I wondered how the story would be portrayed. I have not yet seen the movie though some critics have noted its lack of depth regarding the working conditions in places like Amazon where many of these senior nomads have to continue to search for work far into their 60s and 70s. Having to do short term work at Amazon is not a way I would want to spend my retirement years - the descriptions sound awful really. Now the movie has won an Oscar!

The second book, a novel, was John Steinbeck’s The Grapes of Wrath.  Yes I finally got around to reading that great American classic and it left me with the same kind of feelings I got from Bruder’s book.  It would be a feeling of overwhelming despair to have to contemplate the endless struggle to survive on the road, looking for the next opportunity to work and earn enough to eat and pay for gas and the next van repair.  

Steinbeck writes of the effect the Great Depression had on hundreds of thousands of “Okies” - a pejorative term given to the poor who were forced off their land because of the mechanization of agriculture, the economic collapse and the dust bowl. The story tells of the journey to California  of the Joed family, one of the many families of farmers fallen on hard times in the 1930s, and their exhausting search for work to avoid starvation.  

It is interesting that Steinbeck’s book was banned and burned by some county libraries as being too radical.  His views were considered “socialist”, and in some sense I guess they were.  There is plenty of critique in the book about the economic system in which the large landowners and banks always had the upper hand, and where any who protested were labeled agitators and “reds”.  The migrants never come out as winners in this story.  Even a recent reviewer of Grapes of Wrath calls the book propaganda for socialism, though overall the book is seen as a great commentary on that period of American history.

Though some reviewers write of how the Joed family overcomes many setbacks and hardships, and how this shows the triumph of the human spirit to overcome hardships, I came to the weird ending of the book feeling depleted of hope.  It is interesting that in the midst of the depression there was no social safety net until that was created by Roosevelt’s new deal.  That included social security, which, interestingly, most nomads depend on these days.  Pretty good rebuttal to the socialism criticism.  

Bruder began her research at about the same time as foreclosures and vaporized investments of the Great Recession were pushing many seniors to hit the road.  Many elderly Americans were living out of vehicles to save their meager Social Security benefits and performing grueling physical labor to survive.  The typical story is one of barely making ends meet with low paying jobs or social security, so they can’t afford rent, and in some cases they had lost their homes in the recession.  They talked of freedom from debt while at the same time many are living on the edge.

Judy and I have enjoyed camping for many years.  Though we occasionally do cross country trips, we are mostly the kind that goes out for 3 or 4 days to enjoy nature and then return to a nice shower back home.  We have met many “full timers'' over the years, and I always try to imagine how that lifestyle would be.  In fact, this week while camping in the desert in Southern New Mexico we were parked next to a 57 year old single man in a small R-Pad camper. When I struck up a conversation he rushed over to tell me about himself.  He seemed to be starved for conversation.  He stays at each campground for a few days, sets up his I-pod and sits in his camper or on a chair outside for some days watching movies or other entertainment.  He said, “after all, there’s not much to do here”.  His overweight appearance gave me the impression he is not much into hiking.  He doesn’t need to work as he is on Social Security Disability, he said - “a really bad heart”.  I get the impression of a lonely life, though I hesitate to judge from such a short encounter.  

You tube videos abound about the happy life and freedom of the van dwellers, but I have my doubts after reading Nomads. The founder of the movement, Bob Wells, admits to making an enormous amount of money selling the lifestyle on his videos.   The videos talk about their community, albiet a mobile one, but in the final analysis, for me it is the lack of community that would be the hardest part of being a full timer. But the nomads do re encounter each other on the road, and friendships and mutual support happens, according to their testimony.

Today we see migrants by the tens of thousands arriving at our borders.  Like the “Okies” of the 1930s and many of the nomads of contemporary America, theirs is not so much a life they choose as one that was forced on them by circumstances beyond their control. People living on the edge don’t prefer to live in poverty and insecurity.   

What I observed while working with people living at the subsistence level in Latin America is that it is community and coming to rely on one another that ultimately helps people get through hard times.  That is the take away I get from these two books. 

Prompts from Old Songs and Psalms during the Pandemic; #4

                                                   Oh Love, How Deep, How Broad, How High

An unfamiliar hymn, but so complete and full of the life and love of Christ.  It is attributed to Thomas a Kempis in the 1400s intended to be used for meditation leading to a humble and simple life in the Netherlands in the 15th century.  Was it easier to live a simple life back then? 

 I suppose I have sung it sometime in an Episcopal church. It tells of the Trinity.  Schmidt writes, “Boundless, endless, infinite love is too deep, too broad, too high for us to grasp or explain.  The doctrine of the Trinity but dimly hints of it”. 

This Easter morning we listened to Telemann’s Resurrection on NPR, a joy filled and triumphant oratorio from the 1700s.  How wonderful that there are recordings of these classics while choirs are not singing in concert halls or churches.  

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wMgjUwl_Oig