For generations, actually for centuries, Lutheran churches
have followed the practice of providing confirmation classes for young people
in the church, often studying with the pastor for two years – beginning at age
twelve and ending with the rite of confirmation at about age 14. In my youth I joined a class with Reverand
Thorson for a two-hour session on Saturday mornings over the course of two
school years. My dad’s generation called it ‘reading for the
minister’. We studied Luther’s small
catechism and were expected to have a thorough knowledge of the Ten
Commandments, the Apostles’ Creed and the Lord’s prayer – along with Luther’s
explanations for each part of these, memorizing the answers to his famous
question, “what does this mean?”.
At
the conclusion of this catechetical instruction, young people traditionally
make a profession of their faith in a public ceremony called Confirmation – a rite
for Lutherans but a sacrament in the Roman Catholic Church. The “public examination” portion of this rite
was definitely nail-biting time. We were
supposed to be prepared to answer any question thrown at us, like, “what is the
sixth commandment and what does it mean?”.
In truth, pastor Thorson usually assigned a particular question, i.e.
“this might be the question I ask you, Jerry”.
We arrived
at the service fearing that we would forget what we had spent so much time memorizing
when the moment of truth come upon us. Ours
was a fairly large class, I think about twelve, the girls dressed in white
“confirmation dresses” and the boys in suits and ties – my first suit, charcoal
gray, in vogue at that time, all of us with a white corsage pinned to the
lapel. Indeed, it was quite nerve
wracking on that hot-humid June Sunday morning as the pastor moved down the
line from one to the next and the whole congregation listened intently. Two of the boys, including my good friend Jimmy
Flom, fainted and crumbled to the floor in front of the alter rail. They must have revived by the time the pastor
got to them with their question and the process proceeded on.
Many
relatives were in attendance at this service and attended the big dinner that
followed at our house. The traditional
gift for confirmation was a watch, also my first, given to me by my parents,
and in addition there were cards with a couple of dollars in each envelope from
assorted aunts, uncles and neighbors.
I
don’t remember catechism class as an intellectual exploration of the Christian
faith. It was mostly the pastor talking. We memorized the week's assignment, but there was not much time for asking questions.
I think in the years since that time long ago, pastors have tried to engage young
people in more discussion and debate. This is most certainly
true in the church we now attend.
The author, John Updike, who grew up in a Lutheran home, was influenced by his early experience in Church, though his Christianity as an adult was anything but orthodox. I know little about Updike from his writing, only some from what I have read about him and a couple of his short stories. He seemed to have been obsessed with three things - writing, sex and religious faith.
Updike
writes about a fictional boy named David in a short story titled Pigeon
Feathers,
“Catechetical instruction consisted of reading aloud from a
work booklet, answers to problems prepared during the week, problems like, “I
am the __, the___, and the___, saith the Lord”. Then there was a question period in which no
one ever asked any questions. Today’s
theme was the last third of the Apostles’ Creed. When the time came for questions, David
blushed and asked, ‘About the resurrection of the body - are we conscious
between the time we die and the day of judgement?’
(Pastor) Dobson blinked, and his fine little mouth pursed,
suggesting that David was making a difficult thing more difficult”.
I don’t remember asking any such questions of Pastor
Thorson. I wonder what he would have
said to that question – though, in fact, that question has never occurred to me. Actually, thinking about and asking deeper
questions regarding life and faith didn’t happen for me until later when I was
in college and when I traveled and lived for a year in Europe.
In a 1999 essay, “The Future of
Faith,” Updike recalled what it was like to be in church with his father:
I remember . . . taking collection
with my father at Wednesday-night Lenten services, as a scattering of the
especially dutiful occupied the creaking Lutheran pews. I was fourteen or so, newly (and
uncomfortably) confirmed. I felt tall
with my father as we walked together down the aisle to receive the collection
plates. Although my head at the time
brimmed with worldly concerns (girls, cartoons, baseball), it was nice, I
thought, of this church . . . to cast the two of us in
this responsible, even exalted role.
That memory of doing a serious thing
with his dad was a reservoir of fuel that kept a flame of faith burning in
Updike. Later he tried to stoke the fire by reading Barth and Kierkegaard, but
he knew that faith distilled into ideas would not have remained without the
memory of those early church services. He wrote in that same essay, “It is
difficult to imagine anyone shouldering the implausible complications of
Christian doctrine . . . without some inheritance of positive prior
involvement.” [i]
Without some positive prior
involvement, indeed. That positive
early involvement for me was Sunday school, weekly worship and confirmation
classes. But I had to move beyond the
unquestioning juvenile faith of my youth to a more mature and sustainable faith
in order to find meaning in life and a genuine faith in Jesus as my savior for
the rest of my life. I came to love the
church, even with its blemishes and sins, and now I believe it is practically
impossible for one to be a Christian outside of the church.
I am reminded of what St. Paul wrote:
. . . work out your own salvation with
fear and trembling, for it is God at work in you enabling you to will and to work
for his good pleasure. Philippians
2:12-13
To me this means a continuing effort
to live faithfully, even as I constantly stumble and miss the mark. It does not mean that I depend on good works for
salvation, thank God!
I have seen many for whom their early faith
formation experience did not stick. They
get stuck in the juvenile stage that did not serve them well in adulthood. It is very common for young people to slowly or
quickly withdraw from the church after confirmation. They give it up and don’t move on to a
life-long involvement and commitment.
Yet, in the juvenile stage of faith
development it is important to be involved and feel, as Updike said, cast into
a responsible, even exalted role. I
have observed this recently in my nine-year-old grandson, Colin, as he takes on
the role of reader or acolyte in worship services. He exalts in the responsibility and involvement
and feels good about the positive feedback he gets.
I do not know what happened to all of
my confirmation contemporaries after I left home post high school. I have a hunch that their involvement with
the church was a mixed bag – I know some became life-long members, some were
lukewarm – maybe twicers, attending at Christmas and Easter, and some left
entirely.
Attending confirmation classes and
worship as a young person does not guarantee an ongoing faith life or Christian identity. But it
is an important place to start. A theme
I have pondered for a long time is why so many of the generations that came
after me left the church, and seemingly, rejected the Christian faith. I have yet to come up with a good answer to
that question. But we must never give up. Confirmation class is still a good and worthy
custom to continue.