Wednesday, May 12, 2021

Prompts from Old Songs and Psalms during the Pandemic: #9

                                                           Come let us sing joyfully…  Ps 95

Sing a New Song to the Lord. Ps 98


Some of my favorite Psalms encourage us to sing joyfully; definitely one of the joys of my life.  Almost daily I strum my guitar and sing “old songs”..  Songs like “A Wayfaring Stranger”, and “Keep on the Sunny Side” , or popular songs from the 60s, hymns and chants. I long for the day when we can sing the great hymns of the church in the sanctuary accompanied by a full throated pipe organ.  


We went to in-person worship for the first time in a year.  It was a very worshipful Lenten service - based on the evening compline.  I sang the simple liturgy along with the worship leaders.  Afterwards Pastor Wayne complimented me on my singing but nicely said we are not yet allowed to sing in church because of Covid 19 precautions. I said, yikes, don’t turn me over to the pandemic police!  We laughed together - but I did feel a bit foolish.  


I continue to learn some of the old songs by heart as well as listen to new songs. It is hard to beat the joyful song by  Marty Haugen, Sing Oh God of Earth and Skies. I even try to strum and sing this one by myself at home alone, but some songs just have to be sung in the community. Marty, a cousin, about three removed, grew up in Wanamingo, Minnesota, only about 8 miles from where I grew up. He has become somewhat of a legend in both the Catholic and Lutheran churches for his easy to sing along with compositions.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bTYOglt9ab0


Tuesday, May 11, 2021

Prompts from Old Songs and Psalms during the pandemic: #8

 When cares increase within me, Your comfort gives me joy.  Ps 94


I care about, I wonder about, think about many things every day.  What I care about is life, well being, loved ones and more..  But “cares” here means to worry, be concerned and have anxious thoughts about.  The news overwhelms me with information about the pandemic and especially the plight of others.

  

 Both forms of cares are with me daily. …. It does little good to worry, but how to avoid it.


 Last night I didn’t feel well, an upset stomach and breathing issues.  My mind immediately raced to worst case scenarios.  This morning I am fine.  Comfort comes with the dawn;  Joy maybe, but comfort for sure.  


The image of the Good Shepherd comes to mind.  Marty Haugen’s wonderful song, Shepherd me o Lord reminds me to look  beyond my wants, beyond my fears, from death into life.  Fear no evil, for You are at my side.   



https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wdiusy9YUYc



Sunday, May 9, 2021

Prompts from Old Songs and Psalms during the Pandemic: #7

 I wait for the Lord, my soul waits and in his word I Hope, My soul waits for the Lord, more than those who watch for the morning,    from. Ps. 130


I am not good at waiting.  Now I am impatient and wait for an end to this pandemic. Some see light at the end of the tunnel and are eager; others counsel to keep a steady course.  We will get through this, they say, but it will take time.  People are getting impatient and weary.  But it is early. 


We have been in “lock-down” for months and there is unease in the country.  People are protesting, egged on by the president - so obstinate and contradictory.  Impatient!


Though impatient, I know the wisdom of calm and patient waiting lest I not appreciate each new day. Some of the psalms are poems of quiet meditation, but others hit me with the reality of an unjust and suffering world and often the psalmist pleads for vengeance. The psalmist says, “for in your light we see light”.  I prefer to look to the light.  


One of my favorite Taize contemplative chants is Wait for the Lord, Whose Day is Near.  How good to take quiet moments to contemplate and wait.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s7GexIvX8HU


Saturday, May 8, 2021

Prompts from Old Songs and Psalms during the Pandemic: #6

June 18, 2020

Joy Dawned Again On Easter Day,

The Sun Shone Out With Fairer Ray,

When, To Their Longing Eyes Restored

The Apostles Saw Their Risen Lord.


Though this is not the Easter season, I am prompted to think of suffering, death and resurrection today.  My good friend, Gilberto, in Nicaragua has been suffering unimaginable pain from throat cancer.  Then he contracted Covid while in hospital.  He has lost the capacity to speak and swallow and has been in isolation.   He passed away yesterday.  Affectionately called El Profe, Gil was a kind and joyful servant to many, especially the poor of Nicaragua.  He had a passion for the Lord as he served in leadership positions in CEPAD, the church organization I helped to found after the 1972 earthquake.  


This very old hymn attributed to Ambrose of Milan in the fourth century, carries these words of comfort: from every weapon death can wield, thine own redeemed, thy people, shield.  Some of the weapons death can wield are fear, isolation, anger,  guilt and regret. I trust that Gilberto had no regrets and was not angry as he approached the end, but inevitably the feeling of isolation and aloneness must have accompanied him.  Thankfully, his good wife, Damaris, was present and David Parajon was attending to him with tender care as a doctor and friend.  Gilberto knew of the host of prayers being offered for his good and peaceful passing.  


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K1Z1e7A83s4


Monday, May 3, 2021

Prompts from Old Songs and Psalms during the Pandemic: #5

Continuing to post a few of the meditations I wrote in my journal during the first year or more of the pandemic. This one goes back to almost a year ago, and as I write now the trial for the murder of George Floyd has concluded with a guilty verdict.  We don't know if this is a sign of change for larger justice, or just one case of justice won.

                                                              Lift Every Voice and Sing 


Written in 1900 by James Weldon Johnson, this hymn/poem is filled with reference to the suffering of African Americans (the bitter chastening rod), and their hope for a better and more just future.  

This has become known as the black national anthem.  


Every line stands for the struggle and suffering, the hope and faith of the “march until victory is won”.  Sing a song of faith that the past has taught us, Sing a song of hope that the present has brought us.  Now, we are ten days into the protests and the deepening commitment of those who march for justice after the death of George Floyd on May 25th, 2020.  Peaceful assemblies of thousands in many cities under the banner of “Black Lives Matter”.  Some counter protesters disrupt and threaten the BLM marches.  Violence erupts.  


I ponder the word hope. I am not in a position to even come close to understanding the black experience in this country.  


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MyS3HPInHtI


Monday, April 26, 2021

NOMADS

 

By coincidence the last two books I’ve read are about nomads, or perhaps migrants is a better term.  Jessica Bruder’s 2017 book, Nomadland: Surviving America in the Twenty-First Century, is based on investigative reporting she did over a period of several years.  It is not a novel, so when I heard it was made into a movie I wondered how the story would be portrayed. I have not yet seen the movie though some critics have noted its lack of depth regarding the working conditions in places like Amazon where many of these senior nomads have to continue to search for work far into their 60s and 70s. Having to do short term work at Amazon is not a way I would want to spend my retirement years - the descriptions sound awful really. Now the movie has won an Oscar!


The second book, a novel, was John Steinbeck’s The Grapes of Wrath.  Yes I finally got around to reading that great American classic and it left me with the same kind of feelings I got from Bruder’s book.  It would be a feeling of overwhelming despair to have to contemplate the endless struggle to survive on the road, looking for the next opportunity to work and earn enough to eat and pay for gas and the next van repair.  


Steinbeck writes of the effect the Great Depression had on hundreds of thousands of “Okies” - a pejorative term given to the poor who were forced off their land because of the mechanization of agriculture, the economic collapse and the dust bowl. The story tells of the journey to California  of the Joed family, one of the many families of farmers fallen on hard times in the 1930s, and their exhausting search for work to avoid starvation.  


It is interesting that Steinbeck’s book was banned and burned by some county libraries as being too radical.  His views were considered “socialist”, and in some sense I guess they were.  There is plenty of critique in the book about the economic system in which the large landowners and banks always had the upper hand, and where any who protested were labeled agitators and “reds”.  The migrants never come out as winners in this story.  Even a recent reviewer of Grapes of Wrath calls the book propaganda for socialism, though overall the book is seen as a great commentary on that period of American history.


Though some reviewers write of how the Joed family overcomes many setbacks and hardships, and how this shows the triumph of the human spirit to overcome hardships, I came to the weird ending of the book feeling depleted of hope.  It is interesting that in the midst of the depression there was no social safety net until that was created by Roosevelt’s new deal.  That included social security, which, interestingly, most nomads depend on these days.  Pretty good rebuttal to the socialism criticism.  


Bruder began her research at about the same time as foreclosures and vaporized investments of the Great Recession were pushing many seniors to hit the road.  Many elderly Americans were living out of vehicles to save their meager Social Security benefits and performing grueling physical labor to survive.  The typical story is one of barely making ends meet with low paying jobs or social security, so they can’t afford rent, and in some cases they had lost their homes in the recession.  They talked of freedom from debt while at the same time many are living on the edge.


Judy and I have enjoyed camping for many years.  Though we occasionally do cross country trips, we are mostly the kind that goes out for 3 or 4 days to enjoy nature and then return to a nice shower back home.  We have met many “full timers'' over the years, and I always try to imagine how that lifestyle would be.  In fact, this week while camping in the desert in Southern New Mexico we were parked next to a 57 year old single man in a small R-Pad camper. When I struck up a conversation he rushed over to tell me about himself.  He seemed to be starved for conversation.  He stays at each campground for a few days, sets up his I-pod and sits in his camper or on a chair outside for some days watching movies or other entertainment.  He said, “after all, there’s not much to do here”.  His overweight appearance gave me the impression he is not much into hiking.  He doesn’t need to work as he is on Social Security Disability, he said - “a really bad heart”.  I get the impression of a lonely life, though I hesitate to judge from such a short encounter.  


You tube videos abound about the happy life and freedom of the van dwellers, but I have my doubts after reading Nomads. The founder of the movement, Bob Wells, admits to making an enormous amount of money selling the lifestyle on his videos.   The videos talk about their community, albiet a mobile one, but in the final analysis, for me it is the lack of community that would be the hardest part of being a full timer. But the nomads do re encounter each other on the road, and friendships and mutual support happens, according to their testimony.


Today we see migrants by the tens of thousands arriving at our borders.  Like the “Okies” of the 1930s and many of the nomads of contemporary America, theirs is not so much a life they choose as one that was forced on them by circumstances beyond their control. People living on the edge don’t prefer to live in poverty and insecurity.   


What I observed while working with people living at the subsistence level in Latin America is that it is community and coming to rely on one another that ultimately helps people get through hard times.  That is the take away I get from these two books. 




Friday, April 23, 2021

Prompts from Old Songs and Psalms during the Pandemic; #4

                                                   Oh Love, How Deep, How Broad, How High


An unfamiliar hymn, but so complete and full of the life and love of Christ.  It is attributed to Thomas a Kempis in the 1400s intended to be used for meditation leading to a humble and simple life in the Netherlands in the 15th century.  Was it easier to live a simple life back then? 


 I suppose I have sung it sometime in an Episcopal church. It tells of the Trinity.  Schmidt writes, “Boundless, endless, infinite love is too deep, too broad, too high for us to grasp or explain.  The doctrine of the Trinity but dimly hints of it”. 


This Easter morning we listened to Telemann’s Resurrection on NPR, a joy filled and triumphant oratorio from the 1700s.  How wonderful that there are recordings of these classics while choirs are not singing in concert halls or churches.  


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wMgjUwl_Oig